To The Girl With A Broken Heart

"I wish there was a way to tell you that i miss you. I wish that you’d just talk to me, cant you? I'm fucked up. I cant get to sleep every night." I bet you feel this way every single night, don't you?" I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else. I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself. I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart. I'd rather have the one who holds my heart." Don't you just wish he knew? "You told me you loved me. So why did you go away?" Are you dying to ask him this question? "Never thought we’d have a last kiss. Never imagined we’d end like this" Been pndering over this for nights?

In your mind you keep going back there where you're not suppose to be. You need to get your mind back here, you’ve got your goals to achieve right now. Which is your O'level. You can’t be off track again. MIND + ACTION, that’s what you need to get it in your head right now. Just a short one tonight cause i'm blogging using my Ipod touch so it's kind of inconvenience. Remember I told you I'll be your pillar of strength to get you through this tough period? Every night @ 10:00PM. Read my blog before you go to bed.

Quote Book

Food for thought?
Lessons from life, by 90yr old Regina Brett

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.


2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.


3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.


4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch!


5. Pay off your credit cards every month.


6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.


7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.


8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.


9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.


10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.


11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.


12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.


13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.


14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.


15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.


16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.


17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.


18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.


19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.


20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.


21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.


22. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.


23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.


24. The most important sex organ is the brain.


25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.


26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’


27. Always choose life.


28. Forgive everyone everything.


29. What other people think of you is none of your business.


30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.


31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.


32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.


33. Believe in miracles.


34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.


35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.


36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.


37. Your children get only one childhood.


38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.


39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.


40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.


41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.


42. The best is yet to come.


43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.


44. Yield.


45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

In the school toilet during English lesson. Funny (:


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Me & Muti buddy!



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What A Boring Space, I've Lost The Blogging Vibe!

HIATUS,
till the final year exams are over.
I'll still be updating my twitter though, so follow me now if you haven't! xoxo

One Word = Fun

Classes were unusually fun last week, I laughed alot. I really think we spend too little time laughing amidst all the complications & self inflicted depression we forget what a few minutes of laughter can do. I hope everyone finds a reason to smile, everyday. Ever since school reopened , my life became so mundane . Everyday's a routine. The same old routine. Only with different emotions, different people. Wash up. School. Afterschool. Home. Sleep.
Just a couple of months and I'll be free from all the misery.
I... will... pull... through... this...! Wish me lucks, folks (:

Who Knows Where This Could Be Taking Me

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I left school's website thinking about '7o days' more to the Ns...
It's getting me exciting yet nervous.

2hours more to go before i bid goodbye to holidays and hello to hell . Monday should never come, yet on the contrary I can't w8 for it because i'll be able to see my girls . I've been too distracted for weeks, everyday i think about... I guess it's time for me to gather my thoughts, put things in place, shelve procrastination aside and focus on studying for my Ns. I fucked my life up throughout the June break . I screwed my mids, i screwed my life. I didn't put in my best. I AM SO AWESOME I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING MYSELF. I want to cry. I let you be my distraction and it screwed my life. I shall pack my bag tonight, wake up early tmrw, assembly tmrw, school tmrw. Ok enough, i cannot take it anymore, my head's gonna blow into pieces anytime soon. I shall hit the sheets!

I've come to a point where i want to think about nothing 'cept study study study. Whatever comes, comes. Whatever doesn't, doesn't. I've already wasted 2 weeks thinking about unneccessary erm, shit? It has to come to an end now with school reopening just 2 weeks away. I haven't been studying much since holidays started and the guilt's getting to me. Gotta start real soon. Like maybe .. tmrw? But fuck i just feel so lazyyyy. Motivation's just not coming. Help?

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Just Not Enough

Been days since i've came in touch with the cyberworld. Life's been hectic, often feels like there's not enough time for me. 24 hours is just not enough, a couple more hours would do good.

What a screwed up start of the week... I was taking my shower, preparing to head down to the library to borrow some books when my mum came knocking @ my door crying to me that my uncle fainted @ the coffee shop and was admitted into the hospital. Everyone in the family was informed and they basically rushed down to the hospital. Upon reaching the A&E block, we were informed that he had suffered from a stroke. When i saw him, he was lying immobility on the bed. And after he got transferred to the IU ward, his condition seems to worsen, he was having difficulty in breathing and he cried as the doctor tried explaining to him regarding his condition. It breaks our heart to see him this way. But thankfully, he seems to be recovering though he's still needed to be hospitalised. & Thank you, to the people who've been showing concern regarding his condition. After this incident, i've truly learnt; try not to take things for granted. Yes, we all have felt the 'after-this-experience-i'll-learn-to-treasure-people-around-me' but many a times, after the feeling's off, although we constantly remind ourselves to not take things for granted, we still take it for granted anyway. Human nature?

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June!

This month's to-do list:
• Complete all assignments
• Attend all remedial classes
• Hardcore Maths / Science / POA
• Constant revision everyday
• Finish reading my story books
• Outing with my girls
• Gym / swimming once a week
• SHOPPING
& finally, do something i've always wanted to do so but failed; go on a diet! (its meant for myself, so ignore please)

Sometimes, We've To Fall Hard In Order To Learn From It

Took back all my results today, basically i failed everything except English & Chinese. I don't know why but Maths is the only subject that is capable of pulling me down making me realised that i really need to buck up & stop fucking wasting my time on unnecessary issues. I look out of the door @ the sky, daydream, sleep, fake that I'm thinking hard. Somehow there was many different scenarios played in my head. I found my motivation. I'm tired of failing, tired of only witnessing my classmates being overjoyed with their results, tired of getting upset over my results, tired of only hearing other's being praised & hearing all the encouraging and comforting words from my friends who care about me. I want to get good grades, i want to put on a cheeky smile while getting back my results, i want my teacher to compliment me for doing well, i want to celebrate with my friends who score well, i want to be arrogant going around showing off my results, i want to be the one comforting other's, i want to be the one encouraging other's, i want to make those who pined high hope on me proud, i want to party right after my exams fore i deserve a break, i want to prove those who despise me wrong! Omg this suck so much, like i have so much things weighing down on me. Distinctions, I'm coming for you, for real. There's so much to be done, but i can't stop procrastinating. I keep ignoring the fact that i have a lot to do. I should kick this habit. I've decided that I'm going to work triple hard for my prelim. No more slacking, no more laziness, no more excuses, no more of anything that's going to obstruct me from achieving my goals. Well, talk is cheap, i'm gonna prove it with my actions. As for now, I'm going to cry my heart out, console myself that this is only Mid-year, pack my feelings, learn from my mistakes & move on.

On the other hand, I discovered a few psychos in school. Seriously. STOP FUCKING STARING? Can't stand yr face.